Sharing the Same Room (Thump Thump), Written in 2007

Sharing the Same Room
Thumping
Hammering
As loud as ever
radiating its beat across the room.
This heart of mine will never slow its pace
my blushing becomes apparent in your eyes
your sudden smile rocks me
I’m left completely disarmed
I’m not complaining
but this heart…
I must calm it
but no
not while you remain in this room
every inch of me screams to move
to move closer to you
to kiss you
touch you
to brush against you
anything at all
I’m sick of the screaming, really I am
quiet, behave
but only because I told myself I would
and there you sit
charming as ever
the sudden curl
movement of your lips
a smile
throws my heart into a dead sprint.
yes
beating faster and faster still
thump, thump, thump,
beating out of my chest
lurching towards you
and there you sit
smile growing
blooming, if you will
warring with myself
sorting through the feelings
feelings I should not harbor at this point in time
yet there you are, and there they are.. those feelings
thump thump thump
the drum that is my heart
I could scream
not at you
but at myself
and my crazey heart
out of control
maintain control,
All the while
my lips have curled upwards
a smile of my own
how could I not?
your smile, it’s a beautiful thing
you, are a beautiful thing
something I want for my own
movement
It was a foot
was my foot
one step closer
five more and I tower over you
how awkward
but still you sit
perfectly still
you are patient
something I’ve never had when it came to you
a statuette you are
and a lovely one at that
unbearable
the distance is unbearable
five steps are unbearable
we don’t know what real distance is
three steps come all too quickly
a lapse in my control
two away
and you’re standing
breath escapes me
and again I forget how to inhale